So, I thought about doing art, just out of anxiety. So, this new profile pic is what I came up just by feeling instead of thinking. Once I looked it kind of said a lot. It was really how I felt. I wanted out of all this pain, and feeling. I wanted out of this situation with my stepson. I want out....
I don't want you to think my life is sucky or I am whiny. I just get in these moods that I want out of. So I took my sketch pad. I got my bad energy out without hurting myself. I felt tired but relieved afterward. It was all out of my system and I was able to just go to bed comfortably.
I want you all to know that this art is not about being "good" or trained or making things people like. It's about yourself (or myself). It's not a gift to society, but to yourself. Just let your art be, which is what I did last night. It was a mad, concentrated dash...but it helped me get over the hump of what I was feeling last night.
I love you and I'm so glad you're getting it out and using your art as a positive outlet and really expressing yourself. There is beauty in the breakdown.
ReplyDeleteI love the comment "beauty in the breakdown".
ReplyDeleteI tell myself it every time I get a little broken. It really reminds me of you, and how you aspire to create beauty when you are feeling your worst. I remember it when I'm writing lyrics and when I'm painting and watching Rachel Getting Married, and I remember it when I see your art. Its a song title, but I don't think I've ever listened to the song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hsXl8e_5yR8 Remember you are beautiful, and you are loved, and even at your breaking point, you have goodness and light. I love you.
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