So, my friend Sarah is up this weekend. Since I also had my stepdaughter we decided to do art with her on Sunday. My stepdaughter loved it and painted and almost ran me out of canvases but my own art seemed stunted, as did Sarah's. We couldn't get ours right.
We were both tired and hadn't slept. But I produced art that I didn't feel. And in thinking about I realized the past week or so I am not feeling. I am going through a daze through the motions, exhausted. My passion at the moment seems dwindled and I am hoping that it is not the start of a relapse of anything. I feel like I'm teetering on the brink (of what I don't know) and not feeling art at the moment is scary.
What is that though? The brink? Why did these art pieces represent a brink and teetering on it? I feel discombobulated and tired right now. It's late and I"m getting very little sleep.
But I finished three pieces, which I will post on facebook. I will fill you in more laters.
You know, one thing I learned while studying songwriting in college is that if you're pursuing it with any seriousness, you're supposed to write every day. Most of it is going to be crap, but staying in practice is key to keeping those creative juices flowing. I wonder if making art, even when you're not feeling it, might be the same thing. That said, I don't write every day, so maybe that piece of wisdom isn't really useful, hahaha. All I mean is, it may not mean you're on the verge of collapse. You've had a lot of things to feel lately; maybe your emotions just needed a little break!
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